POEMS

Aaj Phir...

Aaj Phir kyun yaad aa rahe ho tum


Aaj phir kyun hai hawaon mein woh masti ghum

Aaj phir kyun hai palkon mein yeh nami

Aaj phir kyun mehsus hone lagi tumhari kami

Aaj phir kyun hai Charon taraf gham ke yeh saye

Aaj phir kyun aankhon mein hai aansu aye

Aaj phir kyun Charon taraf hai ajeeb sa sannata

Aaj phir kyun is dil mein hai tumhara hi naam goonjta

Aaj phir kyun dil karta hai ki keh daloon woh ankahee batein

Kate maine kaise woh din aur dard bhari raten

Aaj phir kyun mar jaane ko dil chahta hai

Aaj phir kyun yeh dil kisike yaad mein tadapta hai

Aaj phir kyun sochne laga yeh mann bawra

Kya pyar mein aisa hi hota hai…???



Thoughts in solitude....

    She cried herself to sleep

Afraid someone might see her weep

      She tried to sleep….

But all she could do was toss and turn

          In her bed

Coz it was difficult to bear the

     Turmoil in her head



Somehow she went to sleep

    And saw a nightmare

   Which made her ponder

Why cant life be a little more fair



She bore all the pain in her heart

And wondered why is it that people

      Meet and depart



She listened to all her friends’ woes

And thought why the pain never goes



She sought peace and solace

Trying to keep up with the

       hectic life’s pace

She tried to escape this mess

       And runaway

She wanted an escapade

      And a getaway



She tried to be among people

  Making merry so that

  She too could be happy

She was shattered to realize

No one noticed her own misery



She longed for some one to comfort her

She longed for someone to wipe away

            Her tears



    She walked in the rain

Because no one would know if

She smiled or fought back her tears

       And winced in pain…

p.s. I know these are really senti poems but not written on account of any personal experience.
I didn’t get dumped and I am not desparately looking for love.Nothing is wrong with my dear heart its beating at its usual rate.Just wanted to show off my poetic err….rhyming skills but I promise to improve in my next posts.Untill then bear this emotional attayachar

HUMTUM(boys Vs girls)

Boys and girls are poles apart not just in their appearance but in their mindset as well.They are complete opposites.But the saying goes opposites attract”Maybe that’s why they are in awe of each other their differences is what attracts them to each other.However this doesn’t hold completely true anymore

(no offense to the gays and lesbians).So here’s some points(worth to be noted) I have noticed between a boy and a girl.

I will try to be neutral so as not to offend my male readers.yes main gita pe haath rakh ke kasam khati hoon jo kahungi sach kahungi sach ke siva kuch nahin kahungi(the drama queen in me is waking up)

1.Guys are extremely easy going.They can play computer games till 4 in the morning even when there is an end sem xam at 8 and nobody at home knows that their lad has an exam.
Girls on the other hand get super hyper on the night before exam and everyone papa,mummy,dada,dadi,mama,mami maybe even the doggie of the house knows that the ladli beti of the house has an exam even if its just an internal.

2.Guys have got xrays in their eyes and girls have got microscope.
Guys see a passing by girl’s face first then the eyes go down stay there for sometime,move up again to see the face.end of story.
A girl can notice thousand things about a girl/guy passing by right from clothes,to shoes,bags,accessories,maybe even the nail paint.

3.Guys can date dim witted hotties but girls want their guy to be perfect in all respect.

4.Guys claim that girls want all the attention in the world.Now its you who does the chane ke jhaad pe chadana and all that crap about I can do anything for you and when the girl gets pataoed u would rather be with your buddies watching silly matches than with your so called “love of life”.

5.Guys need their space and girls don’t understand that.I mean stop dragging your bf everywhere you go atleast not when you have to go nail paint shopping.

6.Guys are extremely flirtatious and its not good to hit on your gf’s best friend.A girl can also indulge in healthy flirting now and then but she would not dare to hit on her bf’s best friend.

7.Guys can shut you up in your face if you go on blabbering about a new style of dress that is in the stores,new brand of shoes etc.

Girls listen to a guy’s endless chatter about a new gadget,a new computer game and all such nonsensical things even if they don’t care about it.

8.Girls think a lot before entering into a relationship.Guys don’t think at all.

That’s because a girl intends to keep it whereas guys are just awara panchis shifting their nests from one tree (girl) to another(girl..maybe sometimes a guy).

9.Guys always make the first move ever so ready to make a proposal overcoming all fear of rejection and girls sometimes take immense pleasure in rejecting the guys not even considering them for once.Spare the poor guys and shed your ego girls

10.Guys get easily bored of their gfs in case a relationship lasts a little longer than the usual few weeks or a month at best inspite of the girls putting in their best efforts trying to look good going to the parlour everyday.Girls can see their bfs in the same old jersey and jeans and listen to their bullshit for days without getting bored.

P.S. I have written good and bad points for both boys and girls.You cant blame me for favouring girls.

So stop fighting over who is good and who is bad.We are different from each other and that is how god intended it to be.Live in harmony and let us spread love around….

A funny phony incident

This was the only interesting that happened last week coz I absolutely did nothing(which has become a routine these days) apart from watching eclipse(boring….yeah am a gal but I don’t drool over Robert Patterson he looks like an albino) and knight and day which btw was super duper boring. Now I looove Tom Cruise but a film’s got to have a good script.There was nothing in this film except for crazy car chases.So this incident was worth posting.

Few days back I got a text message from an unknown number.It said “ who do you think you are?mind your tongue or I will screw you real bad” and some such nonsensical stuff.So I chose to ignore it thinking someone must have sent it by mistake or someone is intentionally trying to mess with me.The next day I got another text from the same number which said “after whatever you said to me its over just don’t talk with me ever again” and I was like wat did I say I don’t even have your number saved. That was it I asked one of my friend DU* if he knew the number.He said he didn’t know and asked me what happened.I told him the whole story and he made a call to that number to know who he was.To my relief he was a guy called sourav and he was sending those messages to his gf which got sent to me by mistake.You know how people delete their bf’s/gf’s number after a big fight and then type the whole damn thing to send a message or make a call(what is the point then,losers???).Here is the exchange of messages that occurred after that between me,sourav and DU

Sourav to me:hey sorry I was sending those messages to my gf but it got sent to you because of some mistake while typing the number.

Me to sourav:dats alrite I should have asked you yesterday but I thought someone is upto some kinda mischief so I ignored it.

Sourav to me:yeah u should have told me yesterday.Its ok I understand sometimes its better to ignore calls and texts from unknown nos…and a guy called me up to enquire tell him sorry too.btw I am sourav I joined infy few days back.what do you do?

Me(thinking):hmm infy (gr88 so what is there to show off like u climbed mt.everest)

Me to DU:forwarding the message from sourav to let him know he was sorry.

DU to me:ok forgive him,poor guy.

Me to sourav:Dats alrite. I have completed my btech and I got placed at techm.

Souarav to me:techm wow dats a gud company I passed out from ceb which college did you go to?

Me to sourab:your neighbouring college tat(the flirt in me waking up).

Me( thinking):what if he believes too much in the saying love thy neighbour…

Sourav to me:tat gud .so close to ours btw can I know your name?

Me to DU:see,your poor guy has started my enquiry now

DU to me:enjoy the attention while it lasts.

Me(thinking):should I tell him my real name.no sita,no rita,no gita shit man…….i cant even think of a nice name

Me to sourav:manisha(I am so much in love with my name that I cant even think of any other)

Sourav to me:manisha is such a good name now dat u know I broke up with my gf.

Me(grinning uncontrollably and thiking):how come u find everything about me so good.Good college,good job,good name.

Me to DU:forwarding sourav’s message with an added ha ha ha ha….

DU to me:bechara devdas lost his paro toh tryin to get over her by talking to you.

Me to DU:waaaat am I some kind of chandramukhi to do timepass with devdas.

Me(thinking):what the heck one should take proper fayda of d free messaging schemes

Me to sourav:oh am so sorry about your break up.I hope things work out between you two.

Sourav to me:no need of things working out dat was a bye bye forever.

Me(thinking):so…you trying to hook up with me or wat??

Me to sourav:ok then I hope you find someone way better than her.I am sure there is no dearth of good girls at infy.

Sourav to me:No there is not but all of them have prior attachments.Iwill have to find someone who is not available nothing serious this time.no offense but girls cheat.btw the guy who called is he ur bf or bro.He talked very politely no bashing.

Me(thinking): OMG OMG OMG !!!nothing serious means you will flirt with any random girl over phone or what u filthy pig like you haven’t ever cheated on anyone.

Me to Sourav:He is 1 of my best friend bro would have bashed you that’s why I asked him.and just so that you know you got cheated by a girl,somewhere else a girl would have got cheated as well.These things happen all the time.

Sourav to me:ya u are rite its just that this thing has taken a toll on me.Btw do have a bf just beware of him

Me(grinning like anything):Now you are coming to the point.

Me to Sourav:ha ha ha I have been single all throughout my life.Had a number of crushes nothing more than that.

Sourav to me:See dats why u are laughing and I am sad its good not to be serious about these things.it was nice talking to you.

Me to Sourav (with hurting fingers from all that typing):gud talking to you .happy stay at mysore.hope you find someone soon(like I care)

Sourav to me:ha ha I thought I wont be able to make a fool out of you but I was wrong.This is my new reliance(ambanis should pay me for advertising this).DU

Me(laughing ):shit shit shit I got bajaoed so badly this is so embarrassing.

Me to DU:idiot,dog,donkey,monkey didn’t you get anyone else for making a bakra

So this is how my phony incident came to an end.Now stop laughing at my misery.I am damn sure someone sometime must have screwed your happiness with his/her silly pranks.

Ps:*I would be using code words for real world people which can be random letters from their name maybe even nick name or names that I have kept for them.So questions regarding who is who wont at all be entertained.

Today's bachalogs..

I dont have anything to do these days other than watching tv,surfing the net and blogging.So my mum is dragging me to my mausi's place(maternal aunt) every evening.She asks me to teach my cousin sisters she says gyan bantne se badhta hai(mum dat is such a lame xcuse to see your sister .i know you are going to miss her when we move so just say it)
My cousin sisters studies in class 10th and class 4th.I am not writing their names just in case they ever read this they would kill me.So i am naming them G and N.
So i go there to help them with their studies.The one in class 10th(G) asks me to solve some maths problems and then copies them in her notebook.I dont know if she really understands or simply pretends.The one in
std 4th(N)tries really hard but she keeps on forgetting things.This goes on for just about 20 minutes after which they start filling me in with their candid class gossip.G is a teenager so she tells me about all her crushes,and cute senior dancer guys.She even had a boyfriend and later broke up with him because he was two timing her.(Ghosh!!!what is the world coming to..)She even says there is a drug addict in her class(now thats too much of info to handle).She always talks about a certain biology teacher who has a habit of cracking naughty jokes(if u know what i mean!!).That reminds me of my school days when everyone's hormone level shot up and there were lots of shouting,howling and giggles when we were going to be taught the reproduction chapter in our bio class and all that our teacher did was show few slides and said you people know everything you can study on your own.I could not stop myself from laughing,the expression on his face was something to look at.So when G talks about her biology teacher i am amused.She keeps on cribbing about the lack of good looking guys and the abundance of rowdy guys in her class.Yet she says being single is the coolest thing it spares us from the emotional attayachar but the half hearted tone in her voice says it all.So far so good i can identify with her and understand her feelings.I too went through the same phase of life once.But i got the shock of my life when my cute little sister N started telling me what goes on in her class.She said that the couples(yes dats the word she used)sit together holding hands inside the class and blow flying kisses to each other.Even i had my share of crushes during those early years but to see my little sis talk about these things was horrifying.Apart from this class gossip i have noticed many behavourial differences when i compare their life with my schooldays.Like for example even N who is in the 4th std is very particular about her looks and attire always knowing what to match with what.She has a friend called Dolisha(this is real) who apparently carries a make up box with her wherever she goes.(OMG).No wonder N sulked and cried when i didnt get her the lip gloss she wanted.For a girl like me who has not even dated a single guy in 21 years and hardly ever put on make up these were shocking revelations about todays bachalogs i wonder where did all the innocence go???

P.S. G and N dont be mad at me if u ever find this out.I must tell both of u sud be glad your life is way more happening than mine and i am letting the world know about this(i mean the few people who read my blogs)

The Clueless journey so far...

Every time i see the about me section in a social networking site i just go completely blank in my mind.I dont know wat to write about myself.So i think the word that best describes me is clueless.Today is one of those days when nothing seems right and everything is out of place.Today i heard the oft-repeated statement by my brother for the umpteenth time,which is "how the hell did u become an engineer" also" you dont even know this and you call yourself an engineer "blah blah blah......for a stupid thing that i did which i dont even want to mention but it cost me 200 bucks and a headache and a legache as well.Now go figure...This conversation made me reflect back on my life and i realised that i have always been like this always confused,always without a clue and i still am.Whether its about the choice of study,career,relationships i just dont seem to have a clue and just cant think straight ever.When i was a little girl i wanted to become a doctor.Then in std 5 when kalpana chawla was all over the news i wanted to become an astronaut.When i was growing up my mum used to tell me a lot of things about my grandfather who was a lawyer.He was a man of principles always in a pensive mood immersed in deep thoughts sitting in his chamber.I wrote my first ever letter to him at that time i wanted to become a lawyer just like him.later on in class 9th my best friend used to draw little sketches of dresses.She wanted to become a fashion designer and i got fascinated by it too eventhough i am terrible at drawing.later on barkha dutt inspired me.I wanted to become a reporter.I wanted to report news from places of war.I wanted to reach out to people make their voices heard.By the time i finished my 10th.I had completely run out of options.I could have taken arts but then i felt the only subject that i could take up in arts was english there was no way i could study any other subjects in arts.I hated maths the most untill std 9th.I got an amazing maths tution sir who actually helped me improve my maths so much so that i got 97(cud have scored 100 had it not been for my calculation mistake) in maths in my 10th board and my parent couldnt believe it especially my mum.She still kept on advising me to take up arts may be because i am the least intelligent child in my family.So just to prove her wrong i took up science.Those last two years of 11th and 12th in my school were the darkest years of my life i went into a cocoon,depressed all the time.In 12th i immersed myself completely in books in preparation for the 12th board.By that time i had stopped thinking about what to do with my life.I had two options either engg or medical.So i decided to do engg but never prepared for the entrance.As a consequence of which i landed up at trident academy of technology,my alma mater.I was never serious about my studies during these four years except for the 2nd sem after which my grades either went down or remained constant.During the final year i knew i had to do mba and not just any stereotype mba in finance but mba in advertising management or marketing(ads fascinated me a lot)I did not want a career in the software field.So i enrolled myself at IMS but never studied seriously,never gave my best shot.I spent thousands of money on various exam forms(oh god why do they have to charge so much for those bloody forms,screw the system!!!).kept on appearing the exams ,kept on failing...
Then came the final frontier the campus recruitment season during the last sem of engg.I appeared a string of off campuses got rejected in all of them mostly because of my zilch technical knowledge,partly because i was reluctant to join an IT company.
Then i realised after four years of btech i will have to prove somthing to my parents so i studied a little bit boosted my self esteem and appeared for the first on campus in our college.Thank god i had a rehearsed answer for the basic question in any interview which is tell me something about yourself (imagine getting tongue tied at that but then we were taught a certain pattern to answer this question so thankfully i could answer that easily ).But to my horror i forgot the names of the subjects i had in the previous sem.(blame it on my poor memory or the boring subjects whatever..)Somehow mr oldie selected me and i went for the 2nd interview which was with a cute bengali HR.I started harping on how much i liked kolkatta because it still has this old world charm about it and how much i enjoyed the four years of my life there and he seemed pretty amused(i knew i had hit the bull's eye)Then he started the round of technical questions and immediately knew that i dont know a thing(damn!!).Still he asked me to tell me the fav topics of my fav sub(ya he was a kind soul).So i told him the few chapters of the only subject that i had studied and i could convince him with my answers.Finally i got selected.(phew!!).
While basking in this glory i forgot to study for my final sems and it is scaring the hell out of me to even think about the results.I just hope i pass in all the subjects.
All said and done now when engg is over and i have a job i am still clueless.Writing is what is keeping me alive and kicking these days and i want to become an author and publish my own book..
So this has been my clueless journey so far and i am completely clueless about what awaits me next.......maybe thats the beauty of life unfolding the future and venturing into the unknown....

LOST IDENTITIES

Its been days since my last post.Well i had nothing to blog about.yesterday i got into a discussion with a friend about how the world is full of hypocrites.That really made me wonder how all of us are losing our own identities.People often pretend to be some one they are not.We do this for various reasons.Guys do this to impress girls and vice versa.people at their workplace are turning into sycophants instead of being truly sincere.This might help them to attain few immediate goals that they are seeking but in the long run sycophants end up conflicting their own ideologies.There is so much of flattery all around.For an instance if a friend who is obese comes out wearing a dress which is a size smaller for her and asks us "how do i look?"what do we do?we tell her in a very convincing manner "dear that dress looks great on you".What we dont realise is that the same friend whom we lied so as not to hurt her feelings ends up becoming the laughing
stock of the town.People never speak the truth the way it is just to please the other person or to get something done for themselves.people are becoming highly pretentious.I have seen people visiting temples just because others around them do so and i find it very lame and dumb.I have always believed idol worship is not the real way to connect to god.People do this just because it is considered virtuous.There are as many as seven sins and to pretend that one is completely virtuous and godly without any sin is completely insane.We are born to commit sins and make mistakes that is how god intended it to be.We make mistakes so that we learn.So instead of hiding our shortcomings we should try to overcome it and who knows people around us might help us do the same.
People often try to ape celebrities or for that matter even their influential or more popular friends.people follow fashion trends like crazy.They hardly ever give it a thought to what actually looks good on them.
The best exampleof this prententious nature is when people speak with a funny accent just to sound cool.What they actually end up doing is making a fool out of themselves.Every one in this world is unique in his/her own way.
We need to maintain our idiosyncrasies.Only when people accept you for who you are ,you realise your real worth.Individuality is the word of  todays time.You would never know who loved you truly if you keep on pretending to be someone else.So just be yourself and accept people for who they really are.