Each and everyone of you who is reading this post kindly flatter me with a deafening applause(arey yaar I am requesting no?atleast I can demand this much from you in lieu of my life Ishtory)
Okay cutting the crap now and coming to the point.My 8th sem results are out.Now I am unwillingly and unknowingly an engineer that too with a lifetime achievement award.Wondering what that is??Hold on don’t you want to know how in the world can a 22 year old girl get a lifetime achievement award?Is she going to die??Well the good news or maybe bad news for some I am very much alive and I have no plans of commiting suicide in the near or for that matter in the distant future as well.It’s a lifetime award because the four f******(who knows I might even be having young readers)years of my engineering college life felt like a lifetime.It felt like it would never end but it did and did with a bang(atleast for me).Ohkaaaaaay finally killing the suspense,the award and the big bang in question is a backlog that has been awarded to me in the subject of embedded system.(yes I know I am a shameless girl).Before anyone of you belonging to the the topper league is reading this post(yes I dream a lot why d hell would a nerdy topper waste his/her precious time on this)stops reading this thinking “OMG a backlog I shouldn’t read this it could be a bad omen for me”.Let me tell you this is my first ever and thankfully the last backlog and apparently there is a system called auto clear in BPUT(dats my university)due to which I can clear the exam without even appearing for the test once again and even after that I will be able to retain a respectable CGPA of 8.1(yay!!!beep you to everyone who have been laughing at my misery all this while).Still a back is a back and I take immense pleasure in accepting my award(back).So in my acceptance speech I would like to thank the following people/things(yes,my shamelessness has reached the heights of mt.everest.)
1.Long live BPUT for failing me only once and creating this wonderful system of auto clear.I promise to unjoin the BPUT sucks community on orkut if everything goes well.
2.Thanks to all those guys who always said until and unless you have at least 1 back you haven’t completed your engineering.
3.I thank my parents for their support and for not expressing their disappointment in me.Sorry mummy,papa for letting you down.
4.I thank my friends(the genuine ones) for showing their concern and also others(fake friends)for their sympathy.
5.I thank the cute Bengali HR from tech Mahindra for selecting me because of him my parents are somewhat less worried because atleast there(useless) daughter has a job.
6.Last but not least I would like to thank d almighty,bhagwan,allah,jesus,rab in short each and every existent form of god for he knows I don’t deserve to pass in the other subjects as well but he showered his kindness on me.Like I said in 1 of my previous post I was basking in the glory of getting a job and forgot to study.(refer to my clueless journey so far…all those newbies,yes am again getting into dream mode)
Applause once again please
Ok all said and done you might think I am a very bindaas,chilled out kinda gal.Well am certainly not taking a chill pill right now.I am worried,depressed,angry etc etc.Well there are many downsides of getting a back.Everytime a friend calls you up to sympathise you have to lighten up and behave as if it is not a big deal.There are others who inspite of knowing that you have a back will crib about how they got E in project,viva etc whereas miss topper topped because she got 0 in all d projects.
To top it all I have two siblings and whenever the results are out immediate comparisons start and this time I am the victim whose self esteem is silently being butchered but I am a strong person now.I have learnt to laugh at myself and look at the brighter side of everything(Mr.Robin Sharma would be happy to read this) although the cluelessness still prevails.
Oh god!!!why why did I decide to do engineering.I know you have better work to do than listening to me but I still hope you would guide and help me to do the right thing at the right time.I know you gave me a job but you know I am not fit for it and I don’t even want it.Please god help me to do that which I can give my heart to I promise to put my best efforts.
What you think it has become too senti now good it better be shed some tears for me .You cant get away so easily laughing at my misery.
A very loud beep you to all those who thought I was a padhaku and always taunted before every exam(even the internals),oh you must have studied everything now don’t lie.Yeah rite i studied and failed and you didn’t study and topped.Poor me…I guess I went ghas charne(graze grass,I see foreign visitors on the globe wala widget)when god was distributing brain to everyone.
See now you know my name is Manisha and I am not a padhaku.I agree I was never good at dancing,drawing,sports,singing,debating and all such extra curricular activities but that does not mean I spent four years locked up in my room and immersed myself under a pile of textbooks.You should have taunted me as a time waster coz that is what I did I wasted for fucking years of my life(yes now I don’t care whosoever reads it bachalogs don’t waste your life like me do what your heart says not what others ask you to do)
p.s. i wrote this long back and now all is well my backlog will get skipped BPUT zindabad
